So, if you are experiencing emotional wretchedness and it lasts more than 3 weeks, or you start figuring out how to kill yourself, then you really need to get yourself to a mental health professional. Do it. The world needs you and you’re worth it.

One more note: It took everything I’ve got to write this post today. I wrote it because I need something good to come out, right now. I am now going to go sit quietly in my office and meditate. Thank you for reading these words and being part of my healing.

Okay, Onwards

There’s some un-nameable something in my psyche right now.

It’s like something deep is shaking loose, and with it, the usual suspects of fear and shame and anguish.

If I look at this energetically, something in my 3rd chakra has been ready to break surface, something buried is ready to come out. This is good. I don’t know what it is, exactly, but it’s good. Cognitively, I know that.

It has something to do with power, will, self-esteem.

I think it means that I will be ready with the new space I’m growing into.

But emotionally, I’m a mess.

I’m having bad dreams. I’m staying up late. I can’t eat. Literally, I have no appetite. If you’re around this site for more than 10 minutes, you know that this, for me, is a very bad sign.

Why am I telling you this?

Because I don’t want you to assume that every day of my life is shiny and happy and complete. And also…I want to point out something useful for you.

The Truth

When we are having shifts in our psyche, in our way of being, even positive shifts, especially positive shifts, junk shakes out. Bits of dark flotsam and jetsam slip out. This stuff feels awful.

It can take many forms. Mine takes the shape of shame. Not-good-enough-ness. And someone in the background sarcastically laughing at my optimism.

It can also take the form of anger. Or ennui. Or deep, unending sadness. Plate-breaking rage. Hopelessness. Severe sensitivity.

You might lose the ability to eat. Or sleep. Or put more than 3 words together.

You are not lost. You are in the throes of deep change.

What to Do

Take the sanest, kindest part of you and let that part look underneath. See what good is breaking surface in your system. If you can’t see it, don’t worry. It’s there. This is how things work.

Do not assume that you are doomed, that you deserve to feel bad, that you are just a piece of suckiness on a rock circling an ever-burning ball of gas.

In fact, make no assumptions about what comes next, you brave thing, you.

Look for the little birds around you, on their way, searching for seeds, singing for territory and mates.

Tell the people around you what you need. Be clear about what you need, or be clear that you don’t know what you need. Take suggestions from the peeps you trust.

Hold on.

Yes. You. Now. Hold on.

Need a song?

How about Everybody hurts, by R.E.M.?

So, the other day, I was talking about how I like money, and how it took me a long time to like money and to like me.

And I was thinking about my boat.

See, I’m boat pregnant. Meaning, sometime in the next 18 months, I will bring forward a boat. It will be a boat with at least one bedroom. And a shower. And a wee kitchen. And it will be floating on the Columbia river.

Boat Pregnant is hilarious. I’m just imagining myself on the slip, signing papers for my boat and turning to Brian and yelling “You did this to me!”

Bringing a boat to fruition is a helluva lot of hard work. It’s not for the faint of heart. And the kind of boat I want (not too big, too new, or too fancy. Also not a wreck) requires about $40,000. And all my feelings about money come into play with a big goal like that.

So, I’m thinking about money in big ways and small ways, and feeling about money, and working my way through it. And whatever I’m doing, dear reader, I assume that you are doing.

How You Feel About Money…

Okay, anyway…I brought up the point that how you feel about money has something to do with how you feel about you. I felt like that had implied scary music after it. (Rrii! Rrii! Rrii!)

And most folks who left comments talked about their fear of money. (Rrii! Rrii! Rrii!)

So, here’s some thoughts on what that means and how to play with money (because if you can play with it, you can resolve it).

But first…here’s a hug.

How you feel about you

In-the-moment money feelings are also known as transaction anxieties.

So, let’s look at a transaction anxiety moment. Do you ever do this one? I do this one.

Hey Check-Out Guy

Ahem…excuse me! The tag says that the sour cream is 2.35 not 2.45. Can you fix that?

(and inside part of me is screaming, It’s a dime! Let it go! It’s a DIME!).

The problem is not that I’m telling this guy to fix it.

The problems (plural) are all these feeling/thoughts that are going on inside me, to wit…

This happens every time. I can’t believe that they are doing this! Is this a conspiracy? I wonder what else I was overcharged on. Geez, I have to watch these people like hawks.

(Aside, okay, there’s this one check-out guy at my grocery store who is French, and who wears a shirt that says French Lessons- Talk to Me, and I never argue with him. He could charge me $20 for a melon, because he’s cute and French, but also, he never would, because he’s super-conscientious. Ah Bernard, some day I will buy a stinky cheese from you that I will eat on my boat.).

Another tricky transaction anxiety- around movie popcorn-

Okay, I said at home that I was going to go to the movie, but I wasn’t going to buy the popcorn, because oh my god, it’s $4.00. But now I’m buying it, and the large is only 50 cents more and I never eat that much, but it’s a much better deal, it’s almost twice as much popcorn…oh, well, okay. Nom. Nom. Nom. Geez, I didn’t even eat a quarter of it and all this is left over, oh I feel so guilty. What am I going to do with this? Throw it away? It’s like throwing away money.What is wrong with me?

Or…this one…
Should I buy this? I don’t know. It’s expensive. But I really like it. I like it so much. I would use it for 10 years. I know I would. But, it’s expensive and people are going to get the wrong idea. It’s so nice. People are going to think I’m a bitch for having such a nice…”

Ahem…or this one…
OMG…the yarn store…I’ll just look for a minute… Oh I have to have that. I have to have that. I know that I’ve got three baskets of yarn at home, but I don’t like that yarn, I like this yarn. I have to have it. Oh, look this one is made from the chest hairs of a big horn sheep. Ohhhh…it’s so soft. Okay, just a skein. I don’t know what I’m going to do with it, but I have to have it. It’s $40. Okay…I’m buying it. I’ll make a little scarf for somebody.

Or this one…
I’m getting a manicure. I deserve it.

Or this one…
I’m not getting a manicure. I don’t deserve it.

Or this one…
I can buy my kid a really nice thing, but I’ll make do with this crappy thing.

Or this one…
I will never have enough money.

Or this one…
Look at how they spend their money. What the Face is wrong with them?

Gah! Money!

We can play armchair psychologist on this all day.

The point is this: when you feel transactional anxiety, the anxiety is rarely about the money.  Instead, you are playing a little anxiety game that has something to do with guilt or worth or what people will think.

Moneylicious means playing a different game

One that’s fun. At least, one that you can always win.

The trick is this. When you have transactional anxiety, your body, mind and spirit are telling you that you need to pay attention to a feeling you’re having. Because by winding out this feeling, you can make peace with it.

Winding out means exploring it to its natural end.

So, my feelings around being overcharged a dime have to do with feeling risk. In this moment, I’m feeling like the world is a grasping place, and mirroring that grasping in my behavior. It’s not fun.

So one moneylicious game is taking note of transactional anxiety. Hey, I feel bad here. What is this story about? What does it point to? Let’s resolve that.

(Aside: If you don’t have time to do it then, make a note to do it later. Really. Start having time to feel stuff? Okay?)

I know. I know. All these damn feelings.

Other Moneylicious games that are more fun that working with feelings

Here’s one moneylicious game: you never buy anything when you are stressed out.

If you say Bridget, I’m stressed all the time, then well, look there, at how much money you’re saving.

A fun moneylicious idea: use cash. Give yourself a certain amount of cash that you can spend on anything you want, no matter how foolish or short-term. Don’t spend more than that. Spend $4 on popcorn? You’re allowed. It’s okay.

I like this moneylicious game: If I really like something, I will ask, Will this complete me?
If the answer is Yes!, I don’t buy it. Because it’s my inner grabby 4-year-old with a mine, mine, mine complex talking. She really likes shiny things, especially jewelry. Shiny. Shiny. Shiny.

Another moneylicious game: if you feel like you never have enough stuff…go home and pile everything that you haven’t used in the last six months in the middle of your living room. Then sell it. Or donate it. Or decide what you want to keep. It’s just stuff. You have enough stuff. Seriously. You do.

And this one: take the term Deserve out of your vocabulary. You don’t deserve stuff. You don’t not deserve stuff. Replace I deserve… with It’s time for… The guilt goes away. The critic goes away. You can eat your ice cream in peace, actually enjoy it and not be so damn needy about it.

Okay, this list is a wee bit random, but it opens up space to play with money in ways that feel really good, and then, we don’t spend money out of anxiety, and we buy the stuff we like.

Yay!

You, you’re moneylicious baby.

And how it’s taboo to like it.

Or how people think that people with money are dicks. Or unscrupulous. Or ridiculously lucky. Or taking money from people who need it.

Sigh.

I find it interesting that we don’t have these conversations about love or health, the two other resources that support us.

We never say, People who are loved are dicks. or It’s not spiritual to be loved.

No, we don’t say that.

I’m not saying Money is love. Money is way more neutral than love is.

I’m just saying that money has very little to do with personal value. It’s got something to do with safety, but more than anything, it’s got everything to do with what you do with it.

when I have money…

I find it very easy to buy a friend a beer. I buy art. I buy food. I buy books. I buy yarn. I give money to people with dreams to be fulfilled. I buy stuff that either informs me or makes me happy.

I spend money, probably like you spend money. I invest in the people and ideas that give me joy.

What’s wrong with that? Nothing.

When I have money, I have more opportunities to be generous.

And to spend it on stuff I like. And to spend it on people I love.

So why the flag in the sand?

Because I want you to know that you have my permission to like money too. You are not a bad person for it.

You have my permission to ask for a raise, to raise your rates, to buy that book, or piece of jewelry or new running shoes. You have my permission if you need my permission.

You have my permission to take 5 minutes to think about how you feel about money.

You can stop hating on rich people. Because they aren’t having a more fabulous life just because they can spend money in ways you can’t. Good lord. That’s a ridiculous reason to hate somebody.

You can stop feeling bad for not having money. Or for having money. Because money has nothing to do with your worth. Really. REALLY.

What you feel about money has something to do with what you feel about you.

Profound, huh?

It’s taken me a long time to get to the point where I like money. A LONG TIME.

And a long time to get to the point where I like me.

Really. REALLY.

And I don’t want it to be so hard for you.

Let’s just sit with the whole how you feel about money has something to do with how you feel about you for a minute. Or a day. Let’s sit with that for a day.

Tell me.

Tell me about money. And your feelings about it. And your hang-ups. And your awesome.

Here’s Havi, shiva-nata-ing:

So, the idea to Shiva Nata is that you completely occupy your brain, so you can’t think about whatever you typically think about. You just focus on your arms doing their thing and then epiphanies happen.

If you’re not failing, it’s not hard enough. If you’re doing it perfectly, it means that there is room to think.

What happened to me

Havi asked us to think of a word to support us as we did our dancing. I had planned on having epiphanies about my business, but the word soft and a picture of my stepson floated into my awareness.

I thought about my stepson, currently residing in our basement; the 22-year old man/child that needs to grow up and get out into the world and do something. The kid who flunked out of community college, won’t find a job, see a counselor, or even talk with us.

I’m angry at his choices. I’m so pissed, I can’t be in the same room with him.

When he showed up in my brain at Shiva Nata, and I heard the word soft, I thought it was a warning. I thought it was a sign that I needed to be nice.

And I was a little pissed off. Because this was not the problem I wanted to work on. This was not a fun dragon. This was a dragon not of my choosing.

Enter the Shiva Nata Dragons

Havi started with our left arms. My left arm was burned when I was a kid, so it doesn’t have the same range of motion as everybody else’s. So, I had to think about that for awhile.

Then she brought in our right arms. And my brain stopped thinking about anything. Then we stopped and I put my hand on my heart and my other hand on my belly.

And Whoosh!

And whoosh! I saw a picture of myself birthing myself and another version of me saying Put her back, she’s not done yet. (Whoa!)

And then I saw me with a dark blue/green iridescent exoskeleton. My pincers (I had pincers) went clack-clack. (Cool, surreal).

And then I felt the soft warm tender part of me curl up and around me and cocoon me. (It is possible to feel peace and confusion at the same time. It’s a good feeling.)

I don’t understand, I said.

And I heard the softness is for you.

The word. My word. It was for me.

I felt warm. I felt deep love and understanding. I felt safe.

In this safe cocoon, I realized that I was in grief.

I grieve the life that Evan had. I grieve who he used to be. I regret that we didn’t help him make that jump to adulthood. We didn’t do enough. He didn’t do enough.

In this space, I didn’t need to rush to the answer. I could just safely feel the pain, and cry a little.

The Thing About Dragons

I call this experience a dragon, because there are treasures with every dragon, and the subtle threat of sharp claws and the opportunity for flight on a dragon’s back.

Everything we struggle with is a dragon. 

We only struggle when we are invested or when we cannot get away.  Usually, it’s because we are invested. 

The investment is an opportunity for treasure. The treasure can be anything we value. It can be love, understanding, connection, money, acceptance, laughter, stuff.

Everything we struggle with has claws. There is risk. Or else there would be no struggle.

Everything we struggle with has an opportunity for us to fly on its back.

Dragons come. Dragons go.

My personal preference is for the dragons to go. I want the struggle to be dispatched, the treasure received.

I never want to fly on a dragon’s back. I have a little fear of heights, it seems. And I am a wee bit of a control freak. And in the next year, I will change that.

There are always new dragons to deal with.

Notice: I don’t say slay or conquer. Or even subdue. Dragons do not come to slay or be slain. Though it can feel that way sometimes.

Dragons come to be with us and to help us.

A group of dragons is called A Dignity of Dragons. I like that.

The Dragon of Grief

In Shiva Nata, the dragon of grief handled me gently. It helped me sit with my feelings. It helped me grieve.

And then it gave me an understanding of my stepson’s issue. One I didn’t consider. 

Perhaps, the basement is safe and he is afraid. 

Perhaps he doesn’t see that every dragon has a helpful side, every dragon is waiting to give us an answer.

Other Ways to Let the Dragons Approach

Rock Climbing. Surfing. Complicated Knitting. Making Croissants. Anything that so occupies the brain that your thoughts can’t get in (and also does something with both your left and right hand in tandem).

What Now?

I’m going to keep trying this Shiva Nata stuff. And see what other dragons come forward to play. And I’m talking with my sweetie, Brian, to see what we can do now about Evan.

If you want to learn more about Shiva Nata- go Here: Shiva Nata.

Know this: I am not an affiliate of Shiva Nata. I am just me. I like Shiva Nata, but I didn’t want you to think I was getting paid to tell you about it.

Your thots on dragons

Got any? Love to hear them.

I have a friend who is a vintage collectibles dealer. This is a great thing, because he finds beautiful stuff and he has a generous heart, so he’s always finding things for his friends that he gives away.

So, I am the new owner of a beautiful little yellow pot that’s perfect for warming milk for my latte.

He had a session with me recently to figure out how to take the next step in his business.
In my meditation, I saw him at a thrift store, finding things of value. And then, outlined in a shimmery gold, I saw the things that he was missing, that his intuition would guide him to, if he was deeply listening.

I told him about this and he said, Things call me. I get feelings about where things are or where I should go. I get drawn to certain places. Did I tell you about the penny?

The Penny

No, I hadn’t heard about the penny.

Dave was at an estate sale. He had found some great clothes, picked over the rest and was about ready to go when he was drawn to the basement. He’d been down there already and hadn’t seen anything interesting, but his intuition was really pinging.

So, he went downstairs again and found himself standing by a stack of books. On top of this stack were 2 books of pennies, a penny collected for each year. One book was 1900-1949. One was 1949-2000. Each book was $2.00. Dave is not a coin guy, but he figured that two bucks was worth a bet. He bought the older book.

(Aside: What kind of beautiful time was it when people took a penny from each year and put it in a book?)

He went home and left the book of pennies on his table for a week or so. Then, one day he opened it. He was looking at the first page of pennies when he noticed something interesting about a penny from 1909. It had the initials VDB stamped on it, on the bottom of the rim.

So he looked up the penny. It turns out that this penny is one of the rarest Abraham Lincoln pennies and collectors regularly buy it for $1,000-3,000.

One little penny. One to three thousand dollars. Not bad for a $2 investment.

At the end of our session, I made a list of things he can do to further strengthen his intuition. The more you use it, the stronger it gets.

I love my friend Dave, but he’s not special. Er…I mean, he’s special but his intuition isn’t special. We all got it. He uses his to find treasure in the trash. Just think of all the things you could use yours for.

I tend to start to do things because they are fun. Then I have work-in-progress a-has that completely surprise me and then I use what I’ve learned to dance-kick into the next thing.

I had all kinds of reactions during the cupcake season:

1. Woo-woo, for my audience, is a-okay.

People were fine with the chakras, the past lives, the lacks of lines of evidence. What mattered for the cupcake eaters was that I gave them deep insight about who they are and what they can do to make their lives better. Nearly every email said, Hey, you asked about woo-woo? Woo-woo is fine.

I found that fact to be very interesting, because everybody and their dog tells me that the more woo-woo I get, the more I’m limiting my audience and gravitas and turning people off.

People don’t really give a damn where the information comes from. It just has to be relevant, practical and valid. There has to be a “Oh that’s so true!” moment for the cupcake eater.

2. Practical energy exercises are much appreciated

I’ve got people making lists, talking to their chakras, moving their energy, walking barefoot through the grass. I’ve got people looking into their own eyes. People talking to themselves at age 5, 10, 15, 20. I’ve got people taking baths, cooking, painting, listening to their breathing, wearing yellow.

Of course, people love this. I know this from my regular clients. So it’s not really an a-ha. But the feedback is super-cool.

3. People also like very tangible direction.

Do this, and see doors open. It can’t all be fun exercises. Of course, there has to also be direction.
Also not an a-ha, but I like how one can inform the other.

4. People want help with their businesses!

Half of the cupcakes were about business decisions. And I rock at that. I spent 15 years in IT management and marketing. I know my way around corporate America. And to be able to tune in and help people figure this stuff out, is incredibly edifying for me. And useful for them.

5. People can do a lot with a little information.

The most common comment back? “You’ve given me a lot to think about.”
Hmm…It makes me think about sizing and packaging the work I do.

6. The specific key to each problem was different.

There is no 3-step formula for success. There is no one way.
When it comes down to what helps one person vs. another, it’s as unique as a fingerprint.
This is both cool and frustrating.

Because I would love to have a formula to sell you. I would love to wrap this up with a big bow, and make the world a better place, and make lots of money and then go live on a sailboat somewhere.

I’d love to have four questions or five commitments or seven keys or something. I would love something with a number. Yeah, I don’t see that happening.

What’s cool, though, is how it reminds me that life is always giving us the lesson we need when we need it. And the lessons are different and always coming to us, in waves or like rogue grandmothers with sweaters or something…

7. It’s hard to do just a cupcake.

Because everything is related. And sometimes, I found myself giving more than a cupcake because the person wasn’t going to be successful without a complete answer. My marketing friends said, That’s a marketing opportunity!
And I just didn’t want to feel like I was hooking anyone.

8. There’s cupcakes for all.

Even though the answers were very specific, there are themes to play with for future blog posts.
Themes like:
Power
Self-knowledge
Conversation Autopsies
The Night Sky
The importance of talking to yourself
Paralysis
Grief
The importance of YOU-ness in your life.

9. DIY Cupcake

In an effort to make this stuff affordable and everywhere, I need to take what I do and make it into a DIY cupcake. What could that look like? Hmm….

So, there you go.
Got something to say about what you need or would like to see?
Awesome. Bring it.

It’s all about learning how to really use your intuition. Really…whether you use it every day, or it’s sitting in the corner with dust on it.

This course is good for those who have an intuitive practice, and good for those who don’t. I’m learning stuff just by talking through the curriculum with Fabeku (and so is he), and we are experts. We do this for a living every day.

It is going to be SO awesome. Maybe you’ve been thinking about it…and maybe something is stopping you from signing up. So I thought I’d bring out my zoo to help you make up your mind…

Drama LLama

Drama llama sez: Oh, you know that this is just going to be another $125 that you’ll regret you spent. It’s like that time you went out and got that hair cut that all your friends were getting and it looked like a raccoon had died on your head. Bless your heart. I bet you’ll get in there, and try it, and everybody will try not to laugh at your pitiful attempts. They’ll try. They’re good people and all.

VoD the Impaler

VoD sez: You Suck! You will suck so hard at this! Everybody will know!

Destiny Dolphin, the Purpose Porpoise

Destiny sez: Snick…chitter-chitter….snick…

which means figuring out your life’s purpose, or even just the next step is a great way to use your new intuitive skills! Yay!

Crow and Mushroom

Crow sez: You know that thing…you know. The thing that’s really been sticking in your craw? That thing we’ve been working on? Yeah…that thing…How about you learn some tools to handle that thing?

Mushroom sez: (nom nom nom crunch nom) I’m eating all your worries about this away.

Tanuki

Wait…have I not introduced you to Tanuki? A tanuki is a Japanese raccoon dog. In Japanese folklore, they are jolly and a little bit mischevious, and they are endowed with disproportionately-sized testicles. Hence, their favorite phrase is “What could happen?”

Tanuki likes to go to the bar with me, where we drink Sake and eat pickles. With those big cojones of his, he’s often talking me into doing things that I’m very nearly not brave enough for…

Let’s stop by the Izakaya and see what he has to say…

Tanuki sez: Hey! You’re just in time! Hey! Two glasses for my friends, and more of that Junmai Sake! Hey, you want to try this? This is monkfish liver! Hey, you will love it. Hey, try it! See, I told you.”

Tanuki slurps down a glass of sake and eats some sardines.

Oh? The Rock Star Intuition class? You going to take that? Oh ho! You are going to like it. That Fabeku, he’s all right, for all his talk about ninjas, the boy is a smarty. You’re going to come away with some good ideas about your work. Yeah, like that one idea you had…I bet you pick that back up. Hey! We need more pickles! Pickles!

Slurp…crunch…slurp

Hey, what could happen? You know what could happen? You could find out how powerful you are.  Whoa…So crazy…what would you do with that?

Okay

So, the class has already started. Maybe you can take the advice from these guys and apply it to something else in your life.

I hope you’re doing well. I was twittering this morning about the ways I use my intuition. I made a list of the top 21 ways I use it…I think I could have gone on for miles! I want to know the ways you use it.

I use my intuition to:

1. Help bring about positive change in people’s lives.

2. Help pets and their people get along better.

3. Have a close and steady, positive relationship with my kids, so that they grow up to be happy adults leading proactive lives.

4. Have a close, sweet relationship with my partner, so that he and I feel the deep love and respect we have for each other.

5. To grow.

6. To move my business forward.

7. To stay close and support my friends and family and sweet pets.

8. To have a healthy self-esteem, and to put myself out there, even when I’m a little afraid.

9. To enhance my creative experience.

10. To be closer to God.

11. To keep my ego in check.

12. To cut down on worry and anxiety.

13. To understand my purpose.

14.  To stay in the present moment.

15. To sleep well at night.

16. To interact with love and compassion with strangers, and also people in traffic who would otherwise piss me off.

17. To have a healthy sex life.

18. To not be frustrated when my path has unexpected turns and can’t-get-there-from-here-itis.

19. To be in flow with life around me.

20.  To appreciate the world around me.

21. To experience abundance.

If I were to make this list much longer,  you’d see things about time-saving, food, picking the right movie, and all the little, in-the-moment ways that intuition helps my experience…

How do you use yours?

I want to know.  Please tell me!

Want to use yours better? Take our Rock Star Intuition Workshop!

Here’s an extreme close-up of the guy:

Brian is polite and nice to nearly everyone. And he’s incredibly, consciously loving to me. So, he packs extra rain gear when we go camping (because I will forget mine). He makes me coffee before he goes to work in the morning. The man does my laundry. And every day, I am reminded that he is most often thinking of me and what I need.

It comes so naturally to him to do this, it kind of freaks me out.

It makes me want to be a better person, to try to take better care of him. So I make him dinner, a lot. And I let him have the couch all to himself, and I sit in the stinky dog chair (this is the chair where guests try to sit down on it and I shout, Don’t sit on that! It may be more dog hair than chair now).

One day, he was comfortably sacked out on the couch, and our dog Olive, needed to go outside. And at that moment, it occurred to me that it would hurt me more to watch him get up off of the couch than to take the dog out myself.

This is lovingkindness.

This is the feeling of being so connected to someone that their happiness is as good as your happiness.

This is not I’m a good person so I’m going to do this good thing and I’m going to feel good for doing it.

This is not Well you did this nice thing for me yesterday so I’m going to do this nice thing for you today.

This is not It has been ingrained in me to be nice to others so I will do it.

This is not even I have compassion for you so I will do this thing for you.

This is Oh, for some reason the boundaries between me and you are such that I can’t quite tell where you start and I stop and the idea of you getting off the couch is causing more pain to me than the effort of me taking that dog out.

Whoa. This is a big thing.

Perhaps

This is the reason why we long to go two-by-two through the world, why from an early age, we’re doodling our married names on notebooks. It’s so that if we truly love one other person, we can learn to live in lovingkindness with everybody. We can see that we are all part of a greater thing. And that really, when you suffer, I suffer, because you and I are the same.

This loving kindness stuff is hard, sometimes, because we don’t want to lose ourselves in it. We want to somehow be connected, and yet keep that boundary of self. We don’t want to be lost.

We know the torch songs of those who have suffered when they’ve given themselves completely to someone else. We don’t want that.

We have to be sturdy to be in lovingkindness. We have to have structure and form. This is what I know.

Where are you?

In all this? What’s ringing true for you?

Our culture has this idea that either you’re born with it, or not. Guess what… you were born with it!

Are You Ready?

You ready to use your intuition? You ready to bring that part of you to life?
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